I'm bringing Xanga back - drop a comment if you're with me!

Just when I thought things couldn't get much worse they did, of course. This semester has been rough, probably the worst aside from maybe freshmen year around this same time. I don't know what it is but whenever things seem to be going well something bad always has to happen. I don't know how i missed it but of course I did and everything just blows up in my face. Ugh its nothing new.

I just can't believe how much my life is changed. It seems that everything that I've known for the past years is different o so very different. I've lost friends, best friends. I don't know why it surprises me, I've lost every person I've ever considered a best friend, starting from elementary school up. I guess I thought that this time it would be different, that I wouldn't lose them but it happened, thanks to this summer. I hate this summer, I hate how two people ruined my summer and ruined my friendship. I know I'm not entirely innocent but still I said one thing I shouldn't have to the wrong person which I assumed would be kept in secrecy but of course not. I should have known better but I was naive and now I have no friends.

I've cried a lot this week. I thought I was okay with this summer and had accepted everything but of course people had to bring it up again and the feelings came rushing back. I love Bill to death and I don't know what I would do without him. I just miss my best friend. I miss having that girl friend and yet I've come to accept that we are nothing more than acquaintances. It sucks but such is life. Okay well I guess that is enough about my depressing life

I don't think things could get much worse I want to go back to Ship and now




Thank God for him